behold the worlds worst accident

keep your eye on that one, anticipate!

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 16:38:01 GMT

I am not a pretty girl
that is not what I do
I ain't no damsel in distess
and I don't need to be rescued
so put me down punk
maybe you'd prefer a maiden fair
isn't there a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere

I am not an angry girl
but it seems like I've got everyone fooled
every time I say something they find hard to hear
they chalk it up to my anger
and never to their own fear
and imagine you're a girl
just trying to finally come clean
knowing full well they'd prefer you
were dirty and smiling

and I am sorry
I am not a maiden fair
and I am not a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere

and generally my generation
wouldn't be caught dead working for the man
and generally I agree with them
trouble is you gotta have youself an alternate plan
and I have earned my disillusionment
I have been working all of my life
and I am a patriot
I have been fighting the good fight
and what if there are no damsels in distress
what if I knew that and I called your bluff?
don't you think every kitten figures out how to get down
whether or not you ever show up

I am not a pretty girl
I don't want to be a pretty girl
no I want to be more than a pretty girl

wow i havent been home to update so heres an entry just for kicks..

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 19:01:17 GMT

the sky is grey, the sand is grey, and the ocean is grey. i feel right at
home in this stunning monochrome, alone in my way. i smoke and i drink and
every time i blink i have a tiny dream. but as bad as i am i'm proud of the
fact that i'm worse than i seem. what kind of paradise am i looking for? i've
got everything i want and still i want more. maybe some tiny shiny thing will
wash up on the shore. you walk through my walls like a ghost on tv. you
penetrate me and my little pink heart is on its little brown raft floating out
to sea. and what can i say but i'm wired this way and you're wired to me, and
what can i do but wallow in you unintentionally? what kind of paradise am i
looking for? i've got everything i want and still i want more. maybe some tiny
shiny key will wash up on the shore. regretfully, i guess i've got three
simple things to say. why me? why this now? why this way? overtone's ringing,
undertow's pulling away under a sky that is grey on sand that is grey by an
ocean that's grey. what kind of paradise am i looking for? i've got everything
i want and still i want more. maybe some tiny shiny key will wash up on the
shore

so emma and i are no longer really friends i guess. but i dont mind. i seem to be in a great mood while others seem to be angry with this massive heat wave. sarah has a new gf witch is great im happy for her,sarah and i seem to be making a strong friendship shes a cool person, nick and i are the same, hes still in love with me and i am not. my brother is doing well and i hang out with him alot.

yesterday sarah and i got smashed at nicks and danced to jam bands and ani witch was fun, we went down to lark and met really amazing people. sarah is going to move in and pay rent i guess witch is cool cuz no one really ever wants to be alone.

tonight i think i might just stay inside or go out and chill with tony and my brother, who really knows. i never make plans i just seem to go with shit.

so im still in love with my ex, but i know now its better this way. i could do alot better and i am. he was right when he said he would only bring me down, cuz now that hes not in my life im alot happier,

Fri, 03 Jun 2005 22:27:08 GMT

Baby says I'm tearing her down
Shoulder to shoulder, I hold her too lightly
And baby says "Baby, you kids don't do anything."
Oh sweetness

All I need's a brand new heart
It's old and it's cold and it's no longer golden
And baby says "Baby, you're right but that's no excuse."
And my baby says

It's a lie, it's a cop out
And I know you know I know why
You won't try
Cause you're scared and you're weak
And you don't give a fuck about me
And I do believe that you hate yourself

And I knew you'd never stay forever
Holding it together, making songs for me
And all right, forever's on your side
Oh it's only time. it's longer than you think,

And baby says this house is a home
It's worn and it's torn and it holds only your bones
Baby says "Baby, you're cursed. Oh, why can't you see?"
Oh sweetness

All I need's a brand new head
Clear without fears and it knows only your name
Baby says "Baby, you're right. But you'll never win."
And my baby says

It's a lie, it's a cop out
And I know you know I know why
You won't try
Cause you're scared and you're weak
And you don't give a fuck about me
And I do believe that you hate yourself

And I knew you'd never stay forever
Holding it together making songs for me
And all right, forever's on your side
Oh it's only time. It's longer than you think,

And I knew you'd never stay forever
Holding it together making songs for me
And all right, forever's on your side
Oh it's only time. It's longer than you think,

And she says, it's a cop out and
I know you know I know
I know you know
I know you know

fuck men, im doing my own thing now. tonight partying with sarah emma and nick

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 19:31:14 GMT

It was a stormy night, you know the kind where the lightnin' strike
And I was hangin' out with some my yatzhee friends
ooh wee ooh wee ooh wee
The night was long, the night went on, people coolin' out until the
break of dawn
Incense was burnin' so I'm feelin' right, aight
See I picks my friends like I pick my fruit
My Ganny told me that when I was only a youth
I don't walk around trying to be what I'm not
I don't waste my time trying to get what you got
I work at pleasin' me
Cause I can't please you and that's why I do what I do
My soul flies free like a willow tree
doo wee doo wee doo wee
And if you don't want to be down with me, then you don't want to pick
from my
apple tree
And if you don't want to be down, you just don't want to be down
I have a hoe
And I take it everywhere I go
Cause I'm plantin' seeds so I reaps what I sow, ya know, ya know
On and on, and on and on my cypher keep's movin' like a rollin' stone
I can't control the soul flowin' in me
ooh wee ooh wee
See I picks my friends like I pick my fruit

my allergies are horrible right now i feel like such a nerd lol, so its been two days and im not as sad as i thought id be over this hole break up thing. eh hes not the one i wanted to be with i guess, not only that guys come and go but my friends are forever. im in like an erykah badu and fugees mood i know odd right lol. my musical taste is odd, but im an albany chick when u live in the city u listen to everything cuz its always all around u.

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 16:24:02 GMT

How many times do I have to say
To get away, get gone
Flip your shit past another lasses
Humble dwelling

You got your game, made your shot
And you got away
With a lot, but I'm not turned-on
So put away that meat you're selling

'Cause I do know what's good for me
And I've done what I could for you
But you're not benefiting, and yet I'm sitting
Singing again, sing, sing again

How can I deal with this, if he won't get with this
Am I gonna heal from this, he won't admit to it
Nothing to figure out, I got to get him out
It's time the truth was out that he don't give a shit about me

'Cause I do know what's good for me
And I've done what I could for you
But you're not benefiting, and yet I'm sitting
Singing again, sing, sing again

How can I deal with this, if he won't get with this
Am I gonna heal from this, he won't admit to it
Nothing to figure out, I got to get him out
It's time the truth was out that he don't give a shit about me

How many times can it escalate
'Till it elevates to a place I can't breathe?
And I must decide, if you must deride
That I'm much obliged to up and go

I'll idealize, then realize
That it's no sacrifice, because the price is paid
And there's nothing left to grieve
Fuckin go

'Cause I've done what I could for you
And I do know what's good for me
And I'm not benefiting
Instead I'm sitting singing again, singing again
Singing again, sing, sing, sing again

How can I deal with this, if he won't get with this
Am I gonna heal from this, he won't admit to it
Nothing to figure out, I got to get him out
It's time the truth was out that he don't give a shit about me

How can I deal with this, if he won't get with this
Am I gonna heal from this, he won't admit to it
Nothing to figure out, I got to get him out
It's time the truth was out that he don't give a shit about me

yup got dumped. oh well..

just another day so just breath,

Mon, 30 May 2005 00:57:33 GMT

well, my weekend turnd out to be fun, emma and i met really cool people.

friday wasnt to fun, but emma and i spent time together talking and watching french films, cuz we love them. we went to see look at me wich was an amazing french indie film i think everyone should try to check it out. then we watched kapo at my house wich was made in the early 60s and the actress was just amazing.

saterday emma and i woke up with no real plans, i burned an 80s mix and ended up walking around the park, i sat by the water on a tree and wrote thoughts and poems in my book. nick called me and emma and i went to his house were we met up with jeremy ryan and amy. jeremy had sweetish moonshine witch was good and we all jumped in stans car and went to my brothers where we drank molsion ice wich is my fav! i talked to pete called him a fag joked around and then left and came home and passed out.

today i woke up chilled with emma listend to trip hop all day then went to eat out with my brother and emma. they desided to try and sneak a cig cuz we were on the deck they got cought and i laughed at it. so my week is getting better, and im finding my self to be happy again. my friends are closer to me now and im enjoying the spring weather.

scout will always be in my thoughts no matter what, she was amazing. but im positive she wants me to be happy again.

Fri, 27 May 2005 21:08:40 GMT

Unable so lost,
I can't find my way,
Been searching, but I have never seen,
A turning, a turning from deceit.

‘Cause the child roses like,
Try to reveal what I could feel,
I can't understand myself anymore,
‘Cause I'm still feeling lonely,
Feeling so unholy.

‘Cause the child roses like,
Try to reveal what I could feel,
And this loneliness,
It just won't leave me alone, oh no.

I'm fooling somebody,
A faithless path to roam,
Deceiving to breath this secretly,
A silence, this silence I can't bear.

‘Cause a child roses light,
Try to reveal what I could feel,
And this loneliness,
It just won't leave me alone, oh no,
And this loneliness,
It just won't leave me alone.

A lady of war,
A lady of war.

Thu, 26 May 2005 07:22:30 GMT

So long ago, I don't remember when
That's when they say I lost my only friend
Well they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
As I listened through the cemetery trees

I seen the sun comin' up at the funeral at dawn
The long broken arm of human law
Now it always seemed such a waste
She always had a pretty face
So I wondered how she hung around this place

Hey, come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than
In the middle
But me & Cinderella
We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlighthorus:]

She said it's cold
It feels like Independence Day
And I can't break away from this parade
But there's got to be an opening
Somewhere here in front of me
Through this maze of ugliness and greed
And I seen the sun up ahead
At the county line bridge
Sayin' all there's good and nothingness is dead
We'll run until she's out of breath
She ran until there's nothin' left
She hit the end-it's just her window ledge

Hey, come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than
In the middle
But me & Cinderella
We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight

Well this place is old
It feels just like a beat up truck
I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn
Well it smells of cheap wine & cigarettes
This place is always such a mess
Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn
I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else
Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same
But somewhere here in between the city walls of dyin' dreams
I think her death it must be killin' me

Hey, come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than
In the middle
But me & Cinderella
We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight

i went to my friends wake today, i saw her cold dead body. i suddenly wish i could have gave her more, and now i dont what to think about people

Mon, 23 May 2005 18:18:33 GMT

I'm alone sitting with my empty glass
My four walls follow me through my past
I was on a Paris train I emerged in London rain
And you were waiting there swimming through apologies

I remember searching for the perfect words
I was hoping you might change your mind
I remember a soldier sleeping next to me
Riding on the metro

You wore white smiling as you took my hand
So removed we spoke of wintertime in France
Minutes passed with shallow words
Years have passed and still the hurt
I can see you now smiling as I pulled away

I remember the letter wrinkled in my hand
"I'll love you always" filled my eyes
I remember a night we walked along the Seine
Riding on the metro

I remember a feeling coming over me
The soldier turned, then looked away
I remember hating you for loving me
Riding on the metro

I'm alone sitting with my broken glass
My four walls follow me through my past
I was on a Paris train I emerged in London rain
And you were waiting there swimming through apologies - sorry

I remember searching for the perfect words
I was hoping you might change your mind
I remember a soldier sleeping next to me
Riding on the metro

i remember when scout and i use to sing that song at the tops of our lungs, we really enjoyed 80s music. i havent been able to leave my house in 2 days. i know i havent changed but i know im not the same. i dk who i can talk to any more. scout and i were alot alike. my bestfriend emma is close to me but the things inside that i dont let out tear me up and scout could understand that cuz she had been through it too. i really miss her. i still think shes alive sometimes. then a few mins later its like oh yeah shes dead i cant call her. i wish she didnt do it, i wish she knew how much she meant to my brother. and this is going to seem bad but the only time i was happy was in my ex boyfriends arms. i guess i just needed that comfort. i know he cant be there for me now. hes got habbits that i dont agree with. but scout dieing made me realize... this is life we only live for a short time so take the chances or regreat it for the rest of your life.. so thats how im going to live. but i wont change what she loved the most about me, the fact that im nice and friendly.. she use to call me a fairy, and she said she was a pixie. we were mystical trippers and i miss her

in loving memory of scout..

Sat, 21 May 2005 18:04:34 GMT

my friend killed herself and im not sure how to take it ive been drunk ive been sober ive been everything but i cant stop the tears from falling i loved her she was like an older sister to me, i looked up to her, i feel bad for every thing i said that was fucked up i was childish and ill never forget her.. this songs for her..

Step out the front door like a ghost into the fog
Where no one notices the contrast of white on white
And in between the moon and you the angels get a better view
Of the crumbling difference between wrong and right
I walk in the air between the rain through myself and back again
Where? I don’t know
Maria says she’s dying through the door I hear her crying
Why? I don’t know

Round here we always stand up straight
Round here something radiates

Maria came from nashville with a suitcase in her hand
She said she’d like to meet a boy who looks like elvis
She walks along the edge of where the ocean meets the land
Just like she’s walking on a wire in the circus
She parks her car outside of my house
Takes her clothes off
Says she’s close to understanding jesus
She knows she’s more than just a little misunderstood
She has trouble acting normal when she’s nervous

Round here we’re carving out our names
Round here we all look the same
Round here we talk just like lions
But we sacrifice like lambs
Round here she’s slipping through my hands

Sleeping children better run like the wind
Out of the lightning dream
Mama’s little baby better get herself in
Out of the lightning

She says it’s only in my head
She says shhh I know it’s only in my head
But the girl on car in the parking lot says
’man you should try to take a shot
Can’t you see my walls are crumbling? ’
Then she looks up at the building and says she’s thinking of jumping
She says she’s tired of life she must be tired of something

Round here she’s always on my mind
Round here hey man got lots of time
Round here we’re never sent to bed early
And nobody makes us wait
Round here we stay up very, very, very, very late
I can’t see nothing, nothing round here
Catch me if I’m falling

oohhh yes acid rock how i love thee

Fri, 20 May 2005 18:22:32 GMT

Oh, come on, come on, come on, come on!

Didn't I make you feel like you were the only man -yeah!
Didn't I give you nearly everything that a woman possibly can ?
Honey, you know I did!
And each time I tell myself that I, well I think I've had enough,
But I'm gonna show you, baby, that a woman can be tough.

I want you to come on, come on, come on, come on and take it,
Take it!
Take another little piece of my heart now, baby!
Oh, oh, break it!
Break another little bit of my heart now, darling, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Oh, oh, have a!
Have another little piece of my heart now, baby,
You know you got it if it makes you feel good,
Oh, yes indeed.

You're out on the streets looking good,
And baby deep down in your heart I guess you know that it ain't right,
Never, never, never, never, never, never hear me when I cry at night,
Babe, I cry all the time!
And each time I tell myself that I, well I can't stand the pain,
But when you hold me in your arms, I'll sing it once again.

I'll say come on, come on, come on, come on and take it!
Take it!
Take another little piece of my heart now, baby.
Oh, oh, break it!
Break another little bit of my heart now, darling, yeah,
Oh, oh, have a!
Have another little piece of my heart now, baby,
You know you got it, child, if it makes you feel good.

I need you to come on, come on, come on, come on and take it,
Take it!
Take another little piece of my heart now, baby!
oh, oh, break it!
Break another little bit of my heart, now darling, yeah, c'mon now.
oh, oh, have a
Have another little piece of my heart now, baby.
You know you got it -whoahhhhh!!

Take it!
Take it! Take another little piece of my heart now, baby,
Oh, oh, break it!
Break another little bit of my heart, now darling, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
Oh, oh, have a
Have another little piece of my heart now, baby, hey,
You know you got it, child, if it makes you feel good.

to all ive loved before..

Wed, 18 May 2005 20:28:00 GMT

Yesterday a child came out to wonder
Caught a dragonfly inside a jar
Fearful when the sky was full of thunder
And tearful at the falling of a star
Then the child moved ten times round the seasons
Skated over ten clear frozen streams
Words like, when you’re older, must appease him
And promises of someday make his dreams
And the seasons they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and down
We’re captive on the carousel of time
We can’t return we can only look behind
From where we came
And go round and round and round
In the circle game

Sixteen springs and sixteen summers gone now
Cartwheels turn to car wheels thru the town
And they tell him,
Take your time, it won’t be long now
Till you drag your feet to slow the circles down
And the seasons they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and down
We’re captive on the carousel of time
We can’t return we can only look behind
From where we came
And go round and round and round
In the circle game

So the years spin by and now the boy is twenty
Though his dreams have lost some grandeur coming true
There’ll be new dreams, maybe better dreams and plenty
Before the last revolving year is through
And the seasons they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and down
We’re captive on the carousel of time
We can’t return, we can only look behind
From where we came
And go round and round and round
In the circle game

i think joni mitchell writes pretty songs lol..

Mon, 16 May 2005 00:16:38 GMT

will

i won't try to explain what i cannot understand
it's a bird it's a plane it's a one night stand
if i only we could ride far enough
i'd forget you altogether
it's a bluff
there is no way i could not remember

don't ask me what i came here for
it is too delicate for words
i used to want to make you talk
now i would rather you did not

i don't mind if you read while i'm coming
it's alright if you need the t.v.
to keep from noticing my mind going blank
what's the worst thing that could happen?
is my back all that bad?
strike the match and watch the doll come open

don't ask me what i want from you
it is not something you could purposely do
i used to want to make you mine
now i have better things in mind...

last night was fun, ran into my friend sarah at the show last night wich was amazing.. i got the live cd a is for accsident.
then emma sarah and i went to duncans bday party drank a lil bit and left cuz my brother called me, i went there thinking it would be fun but scout and him got in yet another crazy fight so i hooked his girlfriend up with a chick got drunk and went home to pass out.
today i woke up chilled with emma and went to subway to see nick and get some food then left and ran into duncan and sam coming back from vanwies wake.

Sat, 14 May 2005 19:14:10 GMT

tonight emma and i get to go to the dresden dolls show. im soo excited, after we are stoping at a party to celebrate one of our friends bday. so emma and i are going to be getting DRUNK today.

Wed, 11 May 2005 22:48:53 GMT

today i spent the day watching dark crystal and reading in the park, ive been sleepy since i got back from fla and a lil sick. emma and i had a blast but next year im planing on going to nyc i go there alot but its more me than fl is.

Mon, 09 May 2005 21:00:27 GMT

so im still in fla, and my vay-kay is ending well i went to the beach in daytona yesterday where emma my brother and i sat at the bar with a few of his friends and drank, i had to sneak a rum and coke wich was funny and i drank most of bobbys long island ice teas.

today i mostly just sat around the pool, i hate to say it but my pale ass got burned ill be back tomorrow in the afternoon..i kind of miss my ny and all my friends

Fri, 06 May 2005 05:26:39 GMT

so here i am in fla, ive seen a few friends and ive gotten drunk a few times. its been raining for the past couple of days so i havent gotten a tan or a burn just wet! it kind of blows

ill be back in my lovely ny on the 10 yay!

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 20:57:07 GMT

So my week has been fun, mostly chillin with emma nick and i hung out with mark and max yesterday.
today i drove around with nick went to the bike shop and mc dz and came home.

later tonight i guess im going over to nicks to get a lil drunk like always. then im going to pick emma up from work then come home and eat some indian food!

guess what tomorrow is?.. thats right FLORIDA! i so cant wait lol

im going to get sooooooo burned lol a red head in the sun not a good idea lol

Thu, 28 Apr 2005 00:02:54 GMT

all u need is, all u want is.. love. wow dave u got it right haha

so, today emma came over. u know the same old me telling her shutup im sleeping getting woken up by a phone call all the same.
emma and i made sam drive us to mc dz where emma fell out of her chair and sam droped his milk shake wich we didnt pick up being good kids and all. we soo should have played in the play place damn it!

hey hey emma remember this. " are u talking to anyone" no " well u should be talking to me". omg he was soo dumb

when emma and i are in fla we are sooo making everyone think we are lezbos! everyone already thinks it any way lol. i mean whats so wrong with a lil kissing here and there whos it hurting lol. we are just really close friends thats all.

im through living for u, im open wide!

when it all falls down..

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 22:35:02 GMT

well last night was the greenday show, and yes i went. i didnt really like the show i had good seats near the stage like 5 rows up but my friends and i went to the top row and smoked and drank. thats what made it fun. we all went back to nicks and chilled for a bit.

so i havent been in the best of moods latly, i really cant wait till emma and i go to fla. i feel like this will be a good va-kay for the both of us.

i dk what it is about the counting crows but when ever i get meloncholy i always seem to listen to them.

so people are messing with my bestfriend. i hate drama, people need to learn that u have to deal with people u dont like everyday so just make the most of it. lets me adults and not leave rude comments on her journal. i am a big beliver in karma, remember what goes around comes around!

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 21:14:49 GMT

She'll let you in her house
If you come knockin' late at night
She'll let you in her mouth if the
Words you say are right

If you pay the price
She'll let you deep inside
But there's a secret garden she hides

She'll let you in her car
To go drivin' round
She'll let you into the parts of herself
That'll bring you down

She'll let you in herheart
If you got a hammer and a vise
But into her secret garden, don't think twice

You've gone a million miles
How far'd you get to that place where
You can't remember and you can't forget

She'll lead you down a path
There'll be tenderness in the air
She'll let you come just far enough
So you know she's really there
She'll look at you and smile
And her eyes will say
She's got a secret garden
Where everything you want
Where everything you need
Will always stay a million miles away

lipstick will burn her eyes out..

Fri, 22 Apr 2005 18:31:11 GMT

well my 420 was good, i hung out with emma druning the day and then max and mark came by and we went to the mute show wich was fun, we left and we were going to go to the school bus yellow show but emma didnt want to go and that made me sad.. so emma and i got droped off at my house and then went to go pick up sam and pete to chill for a bit and we did then we left them and went back to my house and i passed out.

yesterday was fun too, i went to go pick up my lil brother tony at shinning star and ran into jesse (who i dislike) he bought us beer and we were all walking to the park where we ran into this kid named josh who was tripping balls and playing his guitar and we all drank beer and chilled and talked then josh left and tony and i tried to ditch jesse. after i came back to my house and mark and duncan came by we took a long drive for no reason then we went to go see sin city witch was a kick ass movie i liked it alot.

now im sitting here waiting on emma to come over im not sure what im doing later tonight i might go see a movie again cuz emma is working at the spectrum.

everything was perfect till u came along..

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 19:07:53 GMT

well everyone is talking about 420 and thats all spiffy and stuff but i dont smoke lol..

yesterday was nice out. i wore my short black skirt and my ramones shirt with emmas green cardigan i think i was looking cute haha.

i did a fav. for my dad to make a lil extra cash and bought a book with that at the lark book store. emma and i woundered around inside the book store for about an hour then i bought stones from the river. and walked around albany for a bit.

when we got back to my house i listend to some music and talked to emma and then she went home around 4 or so and i sat on my porch and read my book. all of a sudden pete creeps up and scares the shit out of me. we talked for a bit and he left then i read some more and emma came back over we chilled and talked for a bit then watched some tv and eat food.

today emma starts her job so i have noting to do lol. yes i am a bum right now. but thats ok ill probley read in the park or on my porch.

im soooo excited not this weekend but the next i will be in fla!!!

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 18:42:54 GMT

well this weekend was eventfull..

friday went to nicks with emma, than nick and i left to steal a cat. we got drunk and did. we named it zoe (my idea) then mark and loran came over and we video taped us doing stupid drunk things and our convoz. it was entertaining.

saterday didnt do a hole lot just chilled and fucked aroud with emma lol. and watched the video tape from last night with mark. i was an idiot

i made a new layout please comment and tell me what u think. its amelie. i really love that movie..

today im getting a turtle!!

tell me u miss my ways, tell me u miss my ways..

Fri, 15 Apr 2005 19:08:17 GMT

so my loves, let me tell u whats been up with my fine ass..j/k

ok so i have been listening to this killer band like no stop, there called beulah. yes they have been out for awhile but i just found them so shh.. lol

so im at my house and its 3 im getting ready to go to the park and chill with my girlfriend. YES i said girl-friend. lol. but its just a joke that emma and i play shes not really. well she would be if she had a cock. yes i know to much for u to know. im truly sorry my mouth runs away with its self at times.

so im still reading my book which i enjoy alot, i think my goals are coming out nicely well the frist two any way.

emma and i will be going to fla soon, we are going to do a garden state move. we are going to jump in the water in our underwear. yes people in our underwear. because yes we are just that cliche.

tonight should be fun, we are going to our good friend nicks house and getting drunk, who knows maybe people will see emma and i make out again but who knows. emma and i have just been getting crazy latly. it must be the nice weather and the hot clothes.

tah tah for now my darlings.