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keep your eye on that one, anticipate! [Saturday June 25th, 2005 at 12:36pm] [ music | ani fucking difranco! ] I am not a pretty girl that is not what I do I ain't no damsel in distess and I don't need to be rescued so put me down punk maybe you'd prefer a maiden fair isn't there a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere I am not an angry girl but it seems like I've got everyone fooled every time I say something they find hard to hear they chalk it up to my anger and never to their own fear and imagine you're a girl just trying to finally come clean knowing full well they'd prefer you were dirty and smiling and I am sorry I am not a maiden fair and I am not a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere and generally my generation wouldn't be caught dead working for the man and generally I agree with them trouble is you gotta have youself an alternate plan and I have earned my disillusionment I have been working all of my life and I am a patriot I have been fighting the good fight and what if there are no damsels in distress what if I knew that and I called your bluff? don't you think every kitten figures out how to get down whether or not you ever show up I am not a pretty girl I don't want to be a pretty girl no I want to be more than a pretty girl wow i havent been home to update so heres an entry just for kicks.. confused

[Friday June 10th, 2005 at 2:53pm] [ mood | ditzy ] [ music | ani difranco.. grey ] the sky is grey, the sand is grey, and the ocean is grey. i feel right at home in this stunning monochrome, alone in my way. i smoke and i drink and every time i blink i have a tiny dream. but as bad as i am i'm proud of the fact that i'm worse than i seem. what kind of paradise am i looking for? i've got everything i want and still i want more. maybe some tiny shiny thing will wash up on the shore. you walk through my walls like a ghost on tv. you penetrate me and my little pink heart is on its little brown raft floating out to sea. and what can i say but i'm wired this way and you're wired to me, and what can i do but wallow in you unintentionally? what kind of paradise am i looking for? i've got everything i want and still i want more. maybe some tiny shiny key will wash up on the shore. regretfully, i guess i've got three simple things to say. why me? why this now? why this way? overtone's ringing, undertow's pulling away under a sky that is grey on sand that is grey by an ocean that's grey. what kind of paradise am i looking for? i've got everything i want and still i want more. maybe some tiny shiny key will wash up on the shore so emma and i are no longer really friends i guess. but i dont mind. i seem to be in a great mood while others seem to be angry with this massive heat wave. sarah has a new gf witch is great im happy for her,sarah and i seem to be making a strong friendship shes a cool person, nick and i are the same, hes still in love with me and i am not. my brother is doing well and i hang out with him alot. yesterday sarah and i got smashed at nicks and danced to jam bands and ani witch was fun, we went down to lark and met really amazing people. sarah is going to move in and pay rent i guess witch is cool cuz no one really ever wants to be alone. tonight i think i might just stay inside or go out and chill with tony and my brother, who really knows. i never make plans i just seem to go with shit. so im still in love with my ex, but i know now its better this way. i could do alot better and i am. he was right when he said he would only bring me down, cuz now that hes not in my life im alot happier, confused

[Friday June 3rd, 2005 at 6:25pm] Baby says I'm tearing her down Shoulder to shoulder, I hold her too lightly And baby says "Baby, you kids don't do anything." Oh sweetness All I need's a brand new heart It's old and it's cold and it's no longer golden And baby says "Baby, you're right but that's no excuse." And my baby says It's a lie, it's a cop out And I know you know I know why You won't try Cause you're scared and you're weak And you don't give a fuck about me And I do believe that you hate yourself And I knew you'd never stay forever Holding it together, making songs for me And all right, forever's on your side Oh it's only time. it's longer than you think, And baby says this house is a home It's worn and it's torn and it holds only your bones Baby says "Baby, you're cursed. Oh, why can't you see?" Oh sweetness All I need's a brand new head Clear without fears and it knows only your name Baby says "Baby, you're right. But you'll never win." And my baby says It's a lie, it's a cop out And I know you know I know why You won't try Cause you're scared and you're weak And you don't give a fuck about me And I do believe that you hate yourself And I knew you'd never stay forever Holding it together making songs for me And all right, forever's on your side Oh it's only time. It's longer than you think, And I knew you'd never stay forever Holding it together making songs for me And all right, forever's on your side Oh it's only time. It's longer than you think, And she says, it's a cop out and I know you know I know I know you know I know you know fuck men, im doing my own thing now. tonight partying with sarah emma and nick confused

[Thursday June 2nd, 2005 at 3:28pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | erykah badu.. appletree ] It was a stormy night, you know the kind where the lightnin' strike And I was hangin' out with some my yatzhee friends ooh wee ooh wee ooh wee The night was long, the night went on, people coolin' out until the break of dawn Incense was burnin' so I'm feelin' right, aight See I picks my friends like I pick my fruit My Ganny told me that when I was only a youth I don't walk around trying to be what I'm not I don't waste my time trying to get what you got I work at pleasin' me Cause I can't please you and that's why I do what I do My soul flies free like a willow tree doo wee doo wee doo wee And if you don't want to be down with me, then you don't want to pick from my apple tree And if you don't want to be down, you just don't want to be down I have a hoe And I take it everywhere I go Cause I'm plantin' seeds so I reaps what I sow, ya know, ya know On and on, and on and on my cypher keep's movin' like a rollin' stone I can't control the soul flowin' in me ooh wee ooh wee See I picks my friends like I pick my fruit my allergies are horrible right now i feel like such a nerd lol, so its been two days and im not as sad as i thought id be over this hole break up thing. eh hes not the one i wanted to be with i guess, not only that guys come and go but my friends are forever. im in like an erykah badu and fugees mood i know odd right lol. my musical taste is odd, but im an albany chick when u live in the city u listen to everything cuz its always all around u. dazed and (3) confused

[Wednesday June 1st, 2005 at 12:23pm] How many times do I have to say To get away, get gone Flip your shit past another lasses Humble dwelling You got your game, made your shot And you got away With a lot, but I'm not turned-on So put away that meat you're selling 'Cause I do know what's good for me And I've done what I could for you But you're not benefiting, and yet I'm sitting Singing again, sing, sing again How can I deal with this, if he won't get with this Am I gonna heal from this, he won't admit to it Nothing to figure out, I got to get him out It's time the truth was out that he don't give a shit about me 'Cause I do know what's good for me And I've done what I could for you But you're not benefiting, and yet I'm sitting Singing again, sing, sing again How can I deal with this, if he won't get with this Am I gonna heal from this, he won't admit to it Nothing to figure out, I got to get him out It's time the truth was out that he don't give a shit about me How many times can it escalate 'Till it elevates to a place I can't breathe? And I must decide, if you must deride That I'm much obliged to up and go I'll idealize, then realize That it's no sacrifice, because the price is paid And there's nothing left to grieve Fuckin go 'Cause I've done what I could for you And I do know what's good for me And I'm not benefiting Instead I'm sitting singing again, singing again Singing again, sing, sing, sing again How can I deal with this, if he won't get with this Am I gonna heal from this, he won't admit to it Nothing to figure out, I got to get him out It's time the truth was out that he don't give a shit about me How can I deal with this, if he won't get with this Am I gonna heal from this, he won't admit to it Nothing to figure out, I got to get him out It's time the truth was out that he don't give a shit about me yup got dumped. oh well.. dazed and (3) confused

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